My ardent readers must have noticed that i havent blogged for a while now. The reason is that i was unable to access the new page on my ipad until now. My patient husband reassured me when i started getting agitated that, i would, when He wants me to. Meanwhile this has given me time to advance in writing Adornment; two, which He emphasized that must be written in detail.
I was drifting back to my former impatient self due to a few events which i thought were detrimental to my vision, but ofcourse which my beloved hubby could not understand my concern with it. He assured me that i would get the page when God wants me to write. So i believe what am writing today is of importance to Him, because He has enabled me.
This is in such contrast with what we read in Isaiah 40:31 where the Word says ‘But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint’ This really had me thinking about my life and my often unrealistic expectations. Do we really know what it means to wait upon the Lord? I know that if we only focus on waiting for an event, a person or a thing, our strength will be depleted day by day. The Lord specifically instructs us to wait upon Him and His timing. But if we are setting our focus and our longing on that job offer, proposal, breakthrough, healing or anything similar, we are setting ourselves up for disappointment. To wait upon the Lord means to place our trust in Him and not on the outcome of our situation. It means to continue trusting Him, even if the outcome is not as we had hoped for, because the Lord promises us that He ‘will work all things for good to those who love Him’ (Romans 8:28). Our biggest hindrance in waiting on the Lord is fear – fear of losing control, fear of failure, fear of lack, fear of rejection, or fear of just letting go and trusting the Lord, no matter what. When we experience a traumatic event, we often feel very unsafe and vulnerable. Suddenly all that was familiar is hanging in the balance ; or that is how we perceive it. But actually the Lord is with us every moment. His heart is not to hurt us, but to save us ; often from our own wrong decisions, habits and thought patterns. He longs for us to walk in the fullness of what He has in store for us. But first we need to take that big step, let go and let God. This decision restores the godly order in our lives and allows the Lord freedom to take over and perfect His plans for us. Just recently God jolted me in one of this situation that i had hijacked a project God initiated in my life, of which He has told me a number of times that its not about me, but His Might.
I wanted to sell the Adornment; one so desperately in a particular church. But, for three consecutive monthly meetings, they would not announce it in the women’s meeting. As usual my husband could not even understand why i kept requesting them to. He is the still kind and was sure God would do it His way. When i was just about to get frustrated, the Lord asked me, who told you that the book can only be sold in that church? When i say Nations, do you only see Nairobi Kenya? I was so embarassaed. Thanks for insisting on doing His job!
I immediately released the book to Him. Barely a week later, am seeing Him sell in Nations. He is a Mighty God!… . His timing is always perfect and He is not a God of quick fixes.
In Luke 12:31 we read: ‘Only aim at and strive for and seek His kingdom, and all these things shall be supplied to you also’
Father God, please enable me to always wait wait upon you. No matter my curcirmstances Your plans for my life are perfect. I glorify your Mighty name!