Waiting

“So Naaman went with his horses and chariots and waited at the door of Elisha’s house”

2 Kings 5:9, NLT

Naaman had been told that there was a man of God who could heal him, so he went expecting something. He was waiting expectantly, in hope of healing.

In Isaiah 40:31 we are  told, ‘Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength’. In the NIV and NLT versions of the Bible that word ‘wait’ is translated ‘trust’. Waiting on God is trusting Him. Trusting God, waiting on His timing, His way of working in our lives, resting in Him  all of these are an important part of our prayer life.

The story of Naaman goes on to say that Elisha sent his servant down to tell Naaman to go wash seven times in the Jordan River. Naaman was NOT happy! This wasn’t what he had in mind! He was expecting the great man of God to come down, wave his hand over the leprosy and call on the name of the Lord his God!

Do you see the parallel with our own lives? How often do we wait expecting God to do something in the way that we think He should, and He tells us to go do something that we see as completely unreasonable! It doesn’t make sense to us.

But Naaman had good people around him who encouraged him to do this simple thing, even though it seemed ridiculous, and, through the act of obedience, God healed him!

Recently, i took my mom to see my uncle who is unwell. They are best of friends. As i pulled up at my cousin’s gate, i was told by the guard that she doesn’t live there. I was so sure he didn’t know the person i was asking for, after all this was my cousin’s address, and uncle had confirmed to mum thats where he was recuperating at.

I decided to call my older cousin, she texted me tat she wasn’t in position to receive my call. I texted asking about her younger sister’s address, she replied by giving a general area, she’s not good at direction just like me. She also gave me her number.  I texted her and said i would call shortly to get the directions from her, coz i know she’s a busy person. She texted back and said she would call me. Mom was getting anxious and so i decided to drive around in the vicinity of the said address. One hour later, we were getting nowhere. 

Just then a friend i was supposed to meet called to say she was five minutes away from where we were. We agreed to meet at the nearby shopping center. I drove there and asked mom to stay in the car, i wouldn’t be long. She made to resist but i told her, if God wants you to see uncle today, you will.

When i joined my friend at the cafe, i distinctively asked her if i should sit beside her or opposite her? This was because our talk was personal hence private. She asked me to sit opposite her without hesitation. A few minutes into our conversation, i blinked hard, for i could not believe what or who i was looking at in the parking lot right ahead of me.

Behold! Standing there was my uncle whom we had been searching for with his nurse! I jumped up and yelled, there is my uncle, running towards them. After a hug, he reported to me that he had asked mom to visit him after the operation, she had promised to come but hadn’t. I told him she was in the car on the other side of the parking. He held my hand as i walked him over, excited as weak as he was.

Needless to say, when my cousin appeared on the scene from the chemist’s and found her missing dad, but saw her cousin whom she was planning to call when she gets home, was in shock! I mean, what are the chances? God is precise and perfect! 

When we’re in those times of waiting, we should be listening for God’s instructions. Once we have His instructions, we need to be obedient to do what He has told us to do. Then we can still wait expectantly for God to do even more than all we could hope or imagine! What an exciting thought! If we can get past our disappointment of God not answering us the way we expected Him to answer, we will see how amazingly He answers us. If i had been disappointed and cancelled my meeting? Driven back home? If i had sat beside my friend, i would have had my back to my uncle.

I would like to encourage us all to wait on God in a new way. Wait with expectation for Him to speak to us and give us directions of what to do, and then have the boldness to go and do what He has told us to do.

Father God, may you enable me to wait on you, obey you, and make the steps you ask me to.

Delight in the LORD

So last night i had a bit of a run in with my best friend, aka my manager, aka my husband, aka my teacher. The list is endless. He was admonishing me truthfully for my tendency to discriminate against some churches i feel i should not speak in. He emphasized to me that, as long as am working for God, i cannot be biased against any church or persons because God expects me to fish men , in my case more of women regardless. God is the judge.

That little correction brings us to today. So i decided am not asking him for money to print books to give to Government departments. Am officially in sulking mode, quietly. Meanwhile am broke of course. So my clever mind tells me today i shall go to National Social Security Fund headquarters, and apply to withdraw part of my little savings i have there. I knew this idea is definitely great and i felt so brilliant.

On the matatu i pray for God to lead me to an officer to assist me fast. When i get there, i get on the queue to have my statement printed. It has at least thirty people. Two men in their seventies are ahead of me, and i ask one if am on the correct line, he confirms. One of them decides to educate me, seeing as am not conversant with this office.

He tells me he withdrew part of his savings early last year, he’s even generous enough to share that it was 100k. And right now, he has 20k interest on the other 100k which he intends to draw. Am feeling a little ashamed right now, coz what i have and planning to take is not even half of his figure.

Right there in my spirit, i hear a voice, right now you should start saving here instead of thinking to withdraw. Am not given a chance to argue my point. Not what i hoped for, but what i will truly be thankful for in future if i obey.

When i get my statement, i walk away thinking of a way to save from my monthly allowance generously given by my best friend so i can save. But God is not done with me yet, apparently.

Again the  voice tells me, if you do your part, God will enable you to sell a number of books monthly, money you can save without a problem.

  Well well! Back to our talk last night. That was his advise last night, and now here i was, getting a confirmation from the holy spirit that i was wrong and he was right. My brilliant idea ha!

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

We all know that, God gives us the desires of our hearts, but, we need to delight in Him first. This means we need to charm Him, please Him, be close to Him, enchant Him, pleasure in Him, captivate Him, amuse Him. All these are meanings of delight.

When you delight yourself in God, your desires simply become those He has for you. So He gives them to you naturally. And when you are close to Him, you know His voice, you obey Him and everything falls in place. Incase of any challenges, His grace is sufficient and He will comfort you. We all know that if i follow my spirit man and start saving with NSSF, a time like this next year i will be a happy woman.

We always have to take a step. Do our part. So much for trying to rebel into independence! I know my husband will be amused when he reads this. Because he has told me endless times that, being instructed to wash his feet was not an idle instruction.

  My Jesus my Saviour, teach me how to be humble like you are. I pray in your name that God enables me to delight in Him. Be meek and obedient instantly, so He can give me the desires of my heart. Amen!

Glorify His Name!

Last night i found myself watching a program, “Being”something a rarely do lately. Turns out the program features people who made it despite the odds against them. Last night they featured the story of Maya Anjelou and a secular singer, Kem Walker.

I didn’t know him until last night. He is a son of college graduates who kicked him out at the age of nineteen when they found out he was abusing drugs. He became officially homeless as he would constantly be kicked out of homes for the homeless because of keeping his habit. He said deep inside, he knew he didn’t belong on the streets or in drugs and alcohol. He is now a big star. Ironically, his mom, a banker was a drug addict too.  

One thing he said though that was so profound to me. “I share my story whenever i perform live. This is so because, i need someone in the place where i was to know that, i was there, but overcame victoriously! That will give someone hope who would otherwise give up completely”.

This was a revelation and emphasis to my calling. When God revealed to me that He has anointed me and is with me, Isaiah 61:1-3, i was shocked. Now i see that i was looking at Adah, wrong focus. Ideally God healed me from lack of self esteem for His name to be glorified. Now, how on earth did i expect His name to be glorified unless i share my testimony? So that someone else who may be in that place, where i was shall hear and know there is hope for them? That is the very least we can all do.

When God gets us out of a circumstance we were captive to, its imperative that we share our testimony to give others hope to the glory of His Mighty Name! Are you glorifying God with your testimony?

The scripture below clearly tells us Jesus’ thoughts on testimony.

One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him–and he was a Samaritan. Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”                                                                Luke 17:16-19

God, i pray that you enable me to share my testimony of your goodness in every chance i get to the glory of your mighty name!

 

Arise and Shine!

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:18-19

Nearly six years ago, our son, Dennis, wrote to me a very touching letter. He described the woman he had known for many years as his mum who had since deteriorated to a mere shell of her former self. From years of being beaten down constantly. He yawned for the return of the woman he new as strong and a fighter. This letter touched me, i could feel my son’s frustration, but i had given up. I had surrendered my fate to the definition my abusers had given to me. How sad?

Almost as if in unison, a year later, our daughter Fe sent me money with strict instructions that i have new clothes tailored for me. I never could buy myself anything that cost much. Interestingly, a year earlier, our son, Bry had sat me down and asked me why i had given the reigns of my life to my abuser. He wondered aloud, mum, have you any idea who you are?

Isn’t it interesting how our loved ones can see who we are and keep believing in us, even when we have lost ourselves. Its sad that, even with all these support and reassurance from our children, i did not seem to perceive what the Lord was doing in my life as the scripture above says. I had given up on myself completely.

My only goal and vision was to empower the children. I lived for their future. I frequently told them that, as long as they were all independent, i would be comfortable and happy in my old age just with black tea, ugali with traditional veggies. 

When i met my husband nearly two years later, he shared a vision God had given him four years before we met A vision of his wife speaking to a congregation which was applauding her in an auditorium. Two thoughts went through my mind, he either had the wrong wife, or, his vision was a lie.

Nearly four years down the line as i walked down the Altar after speaking in a large gathering, my husband whom God had arranged with precision to be present told me, you are a natural speaker! I asked Him, what did i say? I had no idea of what i had spoken, but the sanctuary was exploding with applause. 

I had asked God to take over me as i walked on to the Altar. He did. We can do anything through Christ who is our strength. God has given us all a very precious gift, the year 2016.  

“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you. Isaiah 60:1

Towards end of 2014, our joy, Dove recorded a song, Arise and shine. Took me months to recognize that it was a revelation from God.

We like holding onto the old things. Always expecting God to improve on those. But alas! God is a God of new things! Look, He says, Am doing a new thing, do you not perceive it? God has an open book and the best plans for your life, arise, occupy and conquer! Let this be your potion this year.

Do not be like the Israelites who forgot too soon that the creator of the universe had parted the sea for them, i mean, how huge is that? And looked at the people occupying their promised land as giants, and themselves as grasshoppers.

You are more than a giant with God on your side! And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored.

They said, “The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them.” numbers 13:32-33

As long as you have God on your side, you are the majority!

May He enable us to get that revelation, that He is doing a new thing. May we perceive the new thing He is doing in our lives and enter His glory in Jesus’ mighty name! Amen

Entering the Unknown

A joyful and fruitful new year to you all!

Yesterday early morning i woke up only to find myself almost paralyzed in a strange way. I had gone to bed before midnight for the first time in decades on the eve of new year. I had struggled to stay awake but couldn’t. I was so exhausted which was perturbing because i had not done much all day. I could not even lift my arm, or get up and go to the washroom. I thanked God for taking over and soon dosed off. I awoke half an hour later feeling normal, like nothing had happened earlier.

This jolted  me to the realization that, we have no control whatsoever over our lives. 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

But then, why do we struggle so much within ourselves with disobedience to God?

Even as new born babies, the human race is birthed screaming, am sure scared of the unknown world!  As small children, we scream as we are taken to school for the first time, scared of the unknown. The sad part is that, even as adults, we keep a job that makes us miserable, even ends up causing us health problems such as high blood pressure or ulcers, because we are too scared to step into the unknown. Yet, if you die, you will officially be jobless.

We also allow ourselves to stay in abusive relationships, which in many cases end up tragically, one partner dead, the other in prison. Or, both dead, leaving behind orphans. We hold onto toxic friendships. “friends” who put you down all the time. People who take advantage of you all the time. Worse even people who use you for their own ends. We know, yet we are scared to walk away alone into the unknown.

God has now given us a new year, will you live in this year obeying His call for you, knowing that He is the author and finisher of your fate, or will you keep struggling in the same rut over and over, afraid of the unknown. Just to remind you, life is all about the unknown. You may have your resolution for 2016. You may have your plans, hopes and wishes. But, i guarantee you that, most of what will happen in your life this year is unknown to you. 

Even if your desires are fulfilled by God, chances are that He will do it in a very different way than you imagined. The hardest thing for most of us, especially me, is letting go and letting God! So, i pray that God enables me to let go and let Him!

Father God, i commit my life, and that of my family and my readers in your most able hands. Lord, i know that you are God Almighty! I know that the plans you have for us is far beyond any plan we can ever imagine for ourselves. Lord, i pray that, you enable as to seek your will in our lives and obey you instantly. Your plans for us is for a prosperous, peaceful and joyful life in You. In Jesus’ mighty name! Amen